Boredom’s Bounty

Lately I’ve been wondering how big of a rut I’ve been stuck in.  Last night I realized that it must be a fairly large one considering the fact that it was my second wedding anniversary and I was sitting on the couch watching The Day After Tomorrow for about the fiftieth tenth time.  That fact was drilled into my head when I went to Tim Horton’s this morning and ordered the same damn donuts I have every single time.

Ladies and Gentlemen:  I’m officially a boring person.

I try not to be.  I do like patterns and predictability, but I think I like them so much because I can change them at a whim.  Lately there have been no whims, no changing, no anything.  If The Day After Tomorrow were on my computer screen right now, I’d watch it.  If I was offered my choice of donuts, I’d chose the same ones (Boston Creme and Sour Cream for those of you wondering).  That, my friends, is the definition of a rut.

I know I have new things on the horizon.  I have about a kabillion queries out and some manuscript submissions.  I’m almost done applying to grad school and should start in January.  These monotonous times have given me the opportunity to explore these things.  But the fact is that these changes are on the horizon…not on today’s menu.

The worst part of my day, though, is the whole thing.  I sit in front of a computer all day, usually bored out of my mind, waiting for a change to magically occur.  I know it’s not going to, though, so I start making tiny to-do lists in my head with minuscule tasks to take up the time.  I think if I at least had a face paced job, I’d be a bit more apt to change up the remaining pace of my life.  But being that I sit in the same chair, in the same office, staring at the same computer screen every single day leaves me feeling monotonous, not adventurous.

Soon things will change and I’ll look back on this time and realize how short the monotony was compared to the great lengths of time that compose my life.  But for right now, I’m just plain bored.  I’m in need of entertainment and amusement.  I’m in need of fulfillment. I’m in need of change.

But for right now I’d settle for some new donuts and a different movie.