They say that life is full of ups and downs. I don’t know if that could be any truer right now. Well, at least the down part. I sit down at work. I am down on things to do. I get down with Farmville on Facebook to pass the time. I might get up to stretch or use the bathroom, but that’s really about it. That, in a nutshell, is my day.
If I were clever right now I’d make one of those pieces of word art where the words “my day” were within the word “nutshell.” And you’d laugh hysterically at my cleverness and we’d all go about our merry little ways. But I’m not clever. At least not today.
Part of the problem about having a job like I do is that I’m often sitting in front of the computer, mouth agape, with nothing to do. And even though I generally have a distaste for Facebook games and spending lots of time on social networking sites, I find myself without reason to avoid them.
This is one of those times in life where I just have to grin and bear it. I know it’s temporary. I know that something better is on the horizon. But dammit if it doesn’t leave me feeling empty every night. And the worst part is that this boredom actually makes me tired…exhausted even…when I get home from work. I’d be better off if I had tons of things to do. At least then I’d feel a useful sort of exhaustion.
I know I had to do this to get out of my other job, and I know I’m probably in the right place for where I want to go in life. But dammit if it doesn’t feel like shit in the process. I wonder if babies in the womb get this bored? Don’t they get irritated with nothing to play with but the placenta and umbilical cord? There are only so many games of Eye Spy one can play in the womb.
And that’s where I find myself now…in the womb on the way to something bigger and better.
For the record, the womb SUCKS.
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Does the womb have WiFi?
I can totally relate except there are things I can do at work (and should be doing), but they are so boring I find myself wandering around the internet instead of doing them.
I feel your pain. My new job isn’t so much boring as it’s just not fun in any way shape or form. I’m not enjoying myself like I did at my previous job. Some boring/down time is ok to deal with but this is just plain crappy. I hope we both end up with better jobs. SOON!
Man, you have NO idea how well I can relate to this.
I’ve never had a job that was awesome.
Not yet, anyway…
Yep, that’s where my life is at right now. Wasting away the hours at work. I never have enough to do to get me through the week. Glad I’m not stuck at a job where they block the internet. That would be HORRIBLE!
In that pic, the fallopian tubes look like arms and to me, the uterus is saying, “yo, yo, yo!”, like a would-be rapper.
Your post also reminded me when Lockwood would say, “I could be scooping ice cream right now.” We could be scooping ice cream right now, that’s for sure. At least the shit would be more exciting than this.
Ah… Boredom. I don’t know whether to love that I have so much time to spend looking at goofy stuff on the internet, or hate that I’m not ever really doing anything useful.
Um, can we be Farmville friends?
I have to stay busy. I just have to. Because if I get bored, I lose all initiative and feel immobilized. But the busy kind of exhaustion has its cons, too.
Um, interesting imagery…
Anyhoo, I usually bring a book to work…maybe you could try that? Or…
Dun Dun Dun…
Learn to knit!
Even though I haven’t worked formally, I can relate to this. My law school required me to be in front of the computers and researching boring stuff for hours and hours. Even facebook, twitter and blog reading can be a little old after a while..:( this is why I like my music job, it’s much more dynamic and fun and it might take hard work but it makes me happy.
Maybe you should do your hobby on the side? Are you into designing or writing, maybe?
Yes, being bored is totally exhausting. I like my actual job…when I have actual job-related work to do, but it has been SO slow for so long, that I can’t even motivate myself to do the stupid admin stuff that would fill the time. Facebook and message boards got old. Reading history books and taking notes on them got old. Some days, reading/commenting on blogs is old.
In some ways it’s nice to get paid for doing virtually nothing, but some afternoons I feel like the boredom is slowly killing my brain cells and that I won’t know how to actually function when/if I have a job that requires full-on engagement.
I definitely hear you on this one.
When I have job-related work to do, I like my job, too. It’s just those times are few and far-between.
I’d love to learn to knit! But I don’t think bringing into work would be appropriate at this stage. Maybe I could close my door at lunch and work on it.
I try to stay busy as much as I can. Before I know it I’m staring off into space because I know it’s all just busy-work.
If I knew how to do that, yes.
A would-be rapper. Ha.
If they blocked the internet, I have no idea what I would do.
I have had an awesome job…it just happened to end one day. Ever since I’ve been trying to recapture.
I’d have to tap on a pregnant woman’s stomach and ask if the womb has wi-fi. Or find a Stewie Griffin-like baby that remembers the womb. Good thought though!
Oh, how I know what you mean. My jobs has its up and downs also. Sometimes, I’m so busy, I don’t even know what to do with myself. Other days, I’m left staring at the computer screen with a blank mind. But maybe this is what we need to realize we want more?
I work at a newspaper, and considering my assignments aren’t typically huge – and we’re only a twice weekly – I have a lot of down time, so I know exactly how you feel.
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