In The Womb

They say that life is full of ups and downs.  I don’t know if that could be any truer right now.  Well, at least the down part.  I sit down at work.  I am down on things to do.  I get down with Farmville on Facebook to pass the time.  I might get up to stretch or use the bathroom, but that’s really about it.  That, in a nutshell, is my day.

If I were clever right now I’d make one of those pieces of word art where the words “my day” were within the word “nutshell.”  And you’d laugh hysterically at my cleverness and we’d all go about our merry little ways.  But I’m not clever.  At least not today.

Part of the problem about having a job like I do is that I’m often sitting in front of the computer, mouth agape, with nothing to do.  And even though I generally have a distaste for Facebook games and spending lots of time on social networking sites, I find myself without reason to avoid them.

This is one of those times in life where I just have to grin and bear it.  I know it’s temporary.  I know that something better is on the horizon.  But dammit if it doesn’t leave me feeling empty every night.  And the worst part is that this boredom actually makes me tired…exhausted even…when I get home from work.  I’d be better off if I had tons of things to do.  At least then I’d feel a useful sort of exhaustion.

I know I had to do this to get out of my other job, and I know I’m probably in the right place for where I want to go in life.  But dammit if it doesn’t feel like shit in the process.  I wonder if babies in the womb get this bored?  Don’t they get irritated with nothing to play with but the placenta and umbilical cord?  There are only so many games of Eye Spy one can play in the womb.

And that’s where I find myself now…in the womb on the way to something bigger and better.

For the record, the womb SUCKS.