Grant Me Impatience

by kim on February 24, 2010 · 40 comments

in All About Me, C'est la vie

So we all know that I just started back to school this semester, right?  Would it surprise you if I told you that I was already planning my great escape (with a degree)?  It shouldn’t.  I’m apparently the most impatient person I know.

Examples of this impatience is endless.  Let’s see where it takes us:

  • I switch lanes pretty constantly in traffic to try and get the one that is going fastest.
  • Even when I’m excited to see a show or a movie, like Lost last night, I’m even more excited for it to be over and automatically in my head so I can think/talk about it.
  • I can rarely bid on something on eBay because I’ll go nuts waiting for the clock to tick down to zero.
  • When I’m getting gas, I can rarely set it and forget it, I have to squeeze the lever manually so that I know it’s going at peek levels.
  • Even though I wasn’t a big fan of the Corral (save those sweet yeast rolls), I was excited that I got to automatically get my food without waiting.
  • When I started this blog, I was desperate for readership and comments straight away.  Like people would just magically find it and want to read it on Day 1.

The examples could go on forever really.  I’m sure those closest to me could tell you a few more things that I do.  But that’s the problem–I haven’t learned patience.

Patience is one of those things you try to teach kids.  Be patient for summer vacation.  Be patient for Christmas.  Be patient about growing up.  I was never patient for any of these things.  I tried, sure.  But I never could quite muster up the patience necessary to truly enjoy my life along the way.

And so I am here now, trying to figure out how to at least get my Master’s out of the way in the quickest way possible.  All of the old habits of impatience sneak up on me like death and taxes:  they were always going to come anyhow, but once you’re there you’re somehow surprised again.

I could take two deep breaths.  I could put aside working on my plan of work.  I could to a lot of things.  But I realized something this morning.  Sometimes my impatience pays off.  It forces me to reconcile reality with my desires and to bring the two closer together.  It’s not necessarily a blessing, but it’s not always a curse either.  Sometimes, it’s just what I needed.

In any event, I’m not sure I could change it if I tried.

Are you impatient?  What things test your patience?

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SillyJaime February 24, 2010 at 10:58 am

EVERYTHING tests my patience. Perhaps an easier question to answer would be “What doesn't test my patience?” I'd like to blame ALL of my impatience on my anxiety, but I can only blame half of it there. The rest of the blame falls on my shoulders, and it comes from having given myself everything I wanted when I wanted it. I wasn't a spoiled child, so I spoiled myself when I turned 18 and I haven't stopped since.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:27 am

I wasn't a spoiled child either. But I probably do spoil myself.

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ohitislove February 24, 2010 at 11:12 am

ugh. i feel your pain. i just finished my masters and it felt like it took forever, even though i wanted it, and am happy in the end….i complained my way through it!!!!

and lost. can't even wait til the end, but am anxious about it too!!!

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:26 am

I've already planned on speeding things up. But I don't know if that's enough to satisfy me.

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Akirah February 24, 2010 at 11:17 am

I am definitely the same way. When I want something, I first think of the quickest way to get to it. And then I go. I plan a bit, but I go. That's what made this breakup so interesting for me…I want healing and I want to get there NOW. But slowly I've learned that healing is a process and happiness is a journey. This is so unlike how I've viewed life in the past. But I think it's good.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:26 am

You're definitely in a place where impatience can get the best of you.

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ari_b February 24, 2010 at 11:27 am

It depends. I'm impatient for things like having my life how I want it – to be able to work from home and have financial stability . . . and to get married again . . . and to start a family. But I have the patience of a saint with somethings – like waiting for someone to change so that we can move forward as a couple (and ironically, when I finally lose my patience and leave, said person does all the changes I had hoped for).

I've been working on being more patient, but somedays I just can't do it.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:25 am

Some days are better with patience than others, that's for sure.

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LisaD February 24, 2010 at 11:42 am

I guess I'm pretty patient, except when it comes to waiting for food. It drives me nuts to have to cook when I'm hungry and WANT FOOD NOW.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:25 am

Cooking is horrible. You just want to eat and you have to wait. It's not fair.

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Her February 24, 2010 at 1:26 pm

I am so, so, so, impatient about some things that it just burns me to my core. But then, there are other things that I can just wait out for the longest time, and that always surprises me.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:24 am

It is surprising when I find something I can wait out.

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Kim February 24, 2010 at 1:45 pm

I laughed when I read this. I am the exact same way. Doing laundry is painful because I have to wait for all those cycles, I've had each semester planned out to the day of my graduation for a year now and I have no idea if those classes will even be offered in the semesters I planned them for, I've been known to switch lines at the grocery store up to five times before just succumbing to the inevitable wait. It's awful!

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:24 am

Laundry is definitely one of those impatience things. I hate folding and putting away laundry.

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distractiblejane February 24, 2010 at 2:09 pm

I am impatient about EVERYTHING. All the things you mentioned, plus waiting in line, etc. I try to remind myself to be more patient. And I also try to have reading material wherever I go.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:23 am

I try to have at least something to keep up my attention–my phone, my ipod, something.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:23 am

I try to have at least something to keep up my attention–my phone, my ipod, something.

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brad February 24, 2010 at 4:12 pm

Time-sucks. Especially when it comes to computers. I just cannot take watching a page load for minutes on end, or that sound a computer's fan makes when its processor is having a hard time getting the job done.

Oh. And I'm so ready to know everything behind Lost. So ready.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:23 am

Computer stalling is THE WORST.

And I'm so with you on Lost. I NEED TO KNOW NOW, JACOB. NOW.

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Caity February 24, 2010 at 7:41 pm

It depends on what we are talking about, but I'm pretty impatient when it comes to self improvement. I think that's the main thing that tests my patience. I expect myself to immediately be good at things or do things correctly and when I don't, I get incredibly frustrated. It's one of my biggest shortcomings.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:22 am

Self improvement is definitely hard to wait for…and sometimes it's the thing that takes the longest.

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Charlotte February 25, 2010 at 9:16 am

I'm SO impatient with literally EVERYTHING. My list would be way too long for a comment box.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:22 am

That was a sampling. Trust me, mine could take up this entire blog too. We could start a new blog just about our impatience.

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shine February 25, 2010 at 6:02 pm

I'm about to give you a valium, woman!

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 11:16 am

I could use it!

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:16 pm

I could use it!

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:22 pm

That was a sampling. Trust me, mine could take up this entire blog too. We could start a new blog just about our impatience.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:22 pm

Self improvement is definitely hard to wait for…and sometimes it's the thing that takes the longest.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:23 pm

Computer stalling is THE WORST.

And I'm so with you on Lost. I NEED TO KNOW NOW, JACOB. NOW.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:23 pm

I try to have at least something to keep up my attention–my phone, my ipod, something.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:23 pm

I try to have at least something to keep up my attention–my phone, my ipod, something.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:24 pm

Laundry is definitely one of those impatience things. I hate folding and putting away laundry.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:24 pm

It is surprising when I find something I can wait out.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:25 pm

Cooking is horrible. You just want to eat and you have to wait. It's not fair.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:25 pm

Some days are better with patience than others, that's for sure.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:26 pm

You're definitely in a place where impatience can get the best of you.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:26 pm

I've already planned on speeding things up. But I don't know if that's enough to satisfy me.

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Kimwithak February 26, 2010 at 4:27 pm

I wasn't a spoiled child either. But I probably do spoil myself.

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ronnica March 3, 2010 at 5:10 pm

Though I think I've grown in this area a lot, I have a lot farther to go. I AM impatient too often. I want my future, and I want it now. Learning to be content exactly where I am is a moment by moment process!

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cari March 8, 2010 at 8:31 pm

given the type of person i am, if i was an impatient person as well, i'd already be dead of a heart attack. or an aneurysm.

i find that life will happen when it happens and there isn't much i can do to speed it up or slow it down, so i just ride the wave. works for me, but certainly not for everyone.

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